This Place is Mine No More
Today i pack one more carton and i know, i am that much closer to leaving this place, a place i call home today...somehow the distance already seems to be building as if i already belong no more...
The milkman, the vegetable vendor, the newspaper delivery boy, the maid, all seem polite today...the warmth with which they greeted me, the innocuous news we exchanged, the stories we shared, are there no more...From the time I've told them of the move, something has imperceptibly changed...the warmth is now replaced by politeness, the casual and careless conversations somehow seem deliberate and affected...am i being too sensitive...that, i do not know, but i know, i sense, this place is mine no more...
The elderly gentleman i used to occasionally meet on my walks, he lost in his thoughts, i in mine...and then we would sometimes just fall in step and discuss random things...the conversations always leaving us both with a lighter step and a better mood...Today, the dialogue is not so forthright... it seems as if we are going to be strangers again...the comfort of friendship somehow seems affected...where there was camaraderie, the politeness has crept in here too...And i know, i sense, this place is mine no more...
The exchange of phone numbers and email ids seem to do little to alleviate the distance that has already come in before the physicality itself...The promises of keeping in touch, the reassurances of 'we are just a phone call away' or a mail away seem to do little to help the situation too...somehow the fact that the physical distance shall now be there, that we would now not belong to the same place, has done its damage...Today i know, i sense, this place is mine no more....
Even the stray cats and pigeons i feed, sense it i suppose, for they too somehow seem restrained...the cats which came playfully sneaking up to my toes till a few days back, now just lap up the milk and go away...the pigeons which hovered near me, now sit on the branches and wait for the grains...Before i can say good bye and leave them, they seem to have distanced themselves...Today i know, today i sense,this place is mine no more...
Even if and when i come back to visit this place, everything would have changed, and i would be just a visitor, a stranger, somehow not belonging...The people who greeted me warmly once, will only nod a polite acknowledgment if any...the cats that i lovingly fed will no longer come and tug at my toes...that gentleman with whom i walked many a day, may have nothing more to share with me any more...
Just a change of place, and i know i shall never walk these same paths again...Today, i know, i sense, that this place is mine no more...Today, i have to say good-bye to all that was familiar and comforting, for i know that this place is mine no more...
The milkman, the vegetable vendor, the newspaper delivery boy, the maid, all seem polite today...the warmth with which they greeted me, the innocuous news we exchanged, the stories we shared, are there no more...From the time I've told them of the move, something has imperceptibly changed...the warmth is now replaced by politeness, the casual and careless conversations somehow seem deliberate and affected...am i being too sensitive...that, i do not know, but i know, i sense, this place is mine no more...
The elderly gentleman i used to occasionally meet on my walks, he lost in his thoughts, i in mine...and then we would sometimes just fall in step and discuss random things...the conversations always leaving us both with a lighter step and a better mood...Today, the dialogue is not so forthright... it seems as if we are going to be strangers again...the comfort of friendship somehow seems affected...where there was camaraderie, the politeness has crept in here too...And i know, i sense, this place is mine no more...
The exchange of phone numbers and email ids seem to do little to alleviate the distance that has already come in before the physicality itself...The promises of keeping in touch, the reassurances of 'we are just a phone call away' or a mail away seem to do little to help the situation too...somehow the fact that the physical distance shall now be there, that we would now not belong to the same place, has done its damage...Today i know, i sense, this place is mine no more....
Even the stray cats and pigeons i feed, sense it i suppose, for they too somehow seem restrained...the cats which came playfully sneaking up to my toes till a few days back, now just lap up the milk and go away...the pigeons which hovered near me, now sit on the branches and wait for the grains...Before i can say good bye and leave them, they seem to have distanced themselves...Today i know, today i sense,this place is mine no more...
Even if and when i come back to visit this place, everything would have changed, and i would be just a visitor, a stranger, somehow not belonging...The people who greeted me warmly once, will only nod a polite acknowledgment if any...the cats that i lovingly fed will no longer come and tug at my toes...that gentleman with whom i walked many a day, may have nothing more to share with me any more...
Just a change of place, and i know i shall never walk these same paths again...Today, i know, i sense, that this place is mine no more...Today, i have to say good-bye to all that was familiar and comforting, for i know that this place is mine no more...
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