Where my Soul Lingers...
I think it happens to many of us...the times we find that in spite of everything, there is a part of us that lingers on in places left long back. A sense of incompleteness...a sense of something left unfinished makes us want to go back to these places, to those lives that we've left behind.
It's not that we are dissatisfied with our present lives, but there seems to be a part of us, which feels 'incomplete'. I read an article today, where Sanjay Leela Bhansali the acclaimed Bollywood director talks about how a part of his soul remains at the film institute where he could not finish his diploma film. With seven movies to his credit, most of them critically acclaimed and commercially successful, why would a diploma film that he wasn't allowed to edit, still bother him to this day!
I think it's an universal feeling, then, that a part of our soul lingers on, at places and with people where there was no closure. For me, this feeling of missing out, would be the opportunity to work in an advertising agency or with a magazine. As a young student just finishing Masters, i had gone to two famous ad agencies to apply for a job there. I still remember, how impressed i was, how enamored by the whole creative process and how the whole atmosphere of those places really gave me goose bumps! As luck would have it, i did qualify for both the jobs...but, somehow, i made other choices then, and never took up either of the jobs.
Years have passed and i've taken up different jobs at different times. Most of them highly satisfying and fruitful. But there is a part of me, that still wonders what it would be like to work in a place that pulsates with creative energy...I still hope that one day, i would somehow be involved in a creative process, however small...If nothing else, just to experience the high that i know such a place would give me...a sense of creative completeness!
I know my soul lingers in those halls...in those corridors...at that desk...where i've imagined the creative completeness...I've romanticized in my mind so much about working at such a place, i wonder if any reality would ever match up! But craving for that sense of creative completeness...for that closure...my soul lingers on...
It's not that we are dissatisfied with our present lives, but there seems to be a part of us, which feels 'incomplete'. I read an article today, where Sanjay Leela Bhansali the acclaimed Bollywood director talks about how a part of his soul remains at the film institute where he could not finish his diploma film. With seven movies to his credit, most of them critically acclaimed and commercially successful, why would a diploma film that he wasn't allowed to edit, still bother him to this day!
I think it's an universal feeling, then, that a part of our soul lingers on, at places and with people where there was no closure. For me, this feeling of missing out, would be the opportunity to work in an advertising agency or with a magazine. As a young student just finishing Masters, i had gone to two famous ad agencies to apply for a job there. I still remember, how impressed i was, how enamored by the whole creative process and how the whole atmosphere of those places really gave me goose bumps! As luck would have it, i did qualify for both the jobs...but, somehow, i made other choices then, and never took up either of the jobs.
Years have passed and i've taken up different jobs at different times. Most of them highly satisfying and fruitful. But there is a part of me, that still wonders what it would be like to work in a place that pulsates with creative energy...I still hope that one day, i would somehow be involved in a creative process, however small...If nothing else, just to experience the high that i know such a place would give me...a sense of creative completeness!
I know my soul lingers in those halls...in those corridors...at that desk...where i've imagined the creative completeness...I've romanticized in my mind so much about working at such a place, i wonder if any reality would ever match up! But craving for that sense of creative completeness...for that closure...my soul lingers on...
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